yours truly.....

i've been asked loads of questions,"don't you miss the 'things' u once had?","are you really happy with what you've becoming?" or "are you really sure you gonna stay invisible?".my answer is always "i don't know,but i know people i've been associate with all this while,is the best thing that's ever happened to me,cause they accepted me for who i really am NOT treating me like someone they can put blames on."i just don't know why i'm not happy with the things i have now.changed is the only word i can describe about me,myself

i do agree that i've changed,to better or worse its up to you to describe,just don't make it a chaos.but all i know is,i'm not the same again.

i'll never forget everything i've gone through.my hope in this had already soured,i wont continue my responsibility until i get everything settled.but i know,even if in future the dilemma i'm facing is gonna settle.i really do think this issue will be in the "headlines"again.

this summer break is giving me an opportunity to stop and think of what i really really want and also what i need.i want to think what i really want and i need a pit stop and a bit of encouragement.to continue this path isnt easy at all,i'm too exhausted to accept another tough road trip.

till now,i still dont know what i really wanna do in the coming year,i'm still dealing things very emotionally.but who am i gonna approach to?aiya who cares la,its holiday now sooooooo,i can be a temporary hooligan!oh yea,just so u knw(esp meng jiunn) i wont be updating until after i come bk from s'pore k?i'm going to celebrate christmas there and i'm happy now.

gheeghee,i'm going to meet sandra there too.hohoho.. here i come kai farn!I"M COMING!!!


Riley.S signing off~