speechless

i've got involved in a fight with my bro and its a misunderstanding.i thought it was nothing at once,nothing but a normal siblings fight but boy was i wrong!my bro decided to go for a jog after he complains everything to my mother(what a baby!) and yea,without finding out what exactly happened,she called me and yelled at me even though i denied the claim.i finally know where i stand in this family,just a person that will be parents favourite when sibling's gone,a rubbish while they're home.i'm just an eyesore to them.yes,i'm not exaggerating.when i'm tired and drained they said i wasnt caring too much for this family.but when i care they just threw it away.what they think i am?a dog?or just a booty call that will be on their service when they want me.i dont think they need me!was i born on their plans?!dont they know i'm working very hard to prove myself in school and why are they giving me so much pressures and making so much assumptions on me?!yes,i'm just a joke to u ryt?!what happened ytd was a cystal clear wake up call!i'm the one who burns the jungle in ur thought!i dont even want to be here!i dont even want to be in a home which looks like a perfect home but inside,theres nothing but 4 walls!haiz.
anyways,i just came back from atika's farewell party.i felt free and very happy to be around them.yeap,they are better than pills!