so long,so fade

i know my blog seems dead for a long time.loads of things are going on in school,home works,tuition,English week coming really soon,and last but not least,DEBATE!currently it's my first experience in debate and people i get to know are all sooo awesome,funny and extremely good in English!i never expect my first debate experience to be this great and people like the debators for our school are fun to be with!winning syahbandar in the first round really boost my interest in debate not only mentally but physically as well.the second round was against KISAS school,the first speaker is terribly good and the third speaker,grrrrr,sets everyone on fire with his hot figure and Arabian look.rasshi,in d other hand couldn't stop fantasising the first speaker @.@.the third round is next week monday,aiks,guess who's our opponent?kota Kemuning.i really hope we win!but eventho we couldnt,i'll still make this experience as a sweet remark for the year!and of cause,not to forget a ex senior of ours,atika,that helped us in our debate(shes awesome)
well,i attent rc meeting yesterday.nothing much to say,but to my suprise i really neglected most of my jobs and things i should handle.i'm getting pretty lazy in rc,in commitment nor works i should complete.all i think of when i'm in meeting,is english week,friends or points for debate.sometimes i dont even want to attend meetings or even go events held by them.hmm,i guess i still cant forget what they said and did.the anger and hatred is will burning within my that nothing they could do to extinguish it.i'm not longer a fool that u guys could find a way to save ur arsses!i had enough with all the things u guys did!give crappy reasons and excuses and denied ur reponsibility,what a big shit ryt?

p/s:dont text me to remove this post,be alert that it's my blog.so F off k?

and yea,this year's a great year when i'm around people like ryanna,sammy,manda,bianca pammy and jo.although lily had transferred to boarding school in Perak,but hey,we're still BFF's as always and forever will be.talking and joking with them makes my day!loveeeeee them all!well,it's getting late and i'm still thinking how the hell do i install chatbox on my blog.ahahaha nitez everyone!

2010

2010 is a very stressful year and not to mention,erratic daily schedule.i just feel so weird these day,days i feel a slight depress is uncountable.i really envy of some other people that could cope in everything they're facing and with their family.but mine was just like a roller-coaster ride.adore me today,the next day i'm ur pain in d ass.i'm sick of these kind of feelings.why everything i have just whizzes away?why do i have to face so many obstacles?why i cant get to go on with my will without someone persuading me to risk my future?!i never been a problem child,nor will i,but please just shut up!just quit it!i know u're just giving me a second opinion,but didnt u realized ur opinion had slowly changing to discouraging?!
may be i'm just throwing tantrums after a whole week of hard struggle.but i wished that someone will be there when i'm in my lowest and congratz me during the high.