crappy patty

this week's been a highlight in my life and i should nominate this week as THE FUCKING BIRTHDAY WEEK I'VE EVER HAD IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE!forgive me for my harsh words,but i think this post is gonna be a whole lots of vulgarities.just bare with me if u wanna go through my blog.yea,i just had the worst week for the year.thanks to my family and a group of whoreshit,they really contributes a lot for making this week a better off hell.seriously,if u think i'm joking guess what i'm not!my heart's shattered to million pieces.first i dont get to celebrate my birthday on my choice,second my parents is starting to annoy me a lot!and i'm showered with a few basket of homeworks and asignment den last but not least,those whore shit douchebags just always trying to make a scene.well,i always thought that what would be my sweet 16 gonna be?an ipod?well,thats not gonna happen because i know they pampers someone better.my whole teenage life probably sucked due to too much of pressure.i always thought i was adopted and hopefully my imaginary "real parents" will reunite with me and bring me somewhere else from here.well,happy suckish birthday to me and not so cherrished weeh after all.oh yea,dont talk to me cause i couldnt think straight or even talk in a fluenced manner.
bye fuckers

downturn

so a whole bucket of things falls on the month of march.frankly,march isn't a favorable month for me.till now I'm still thinking either to continue Gerald's class or just seek for a random English tutor in Eng Ann and stick my ass there for a couple of year.i know i wouldn't be able to find a tutor as good as Gerald,but i think i would be able to go with the flow.anyhow,English isn't as hard as diamond as i only need to explore more vocabs.
currently I'm working on my essay and hoping to be published in this year's school magazine.for some of u,i know u guys have been aching to read my work.well,u guys have to bare with me for a while longer because it's still under progress.hahaha.well,this year's gonna be a very busy year.between,science and math week is next week and nt to forget during teacher's day English society's going to do a play.the play is going to be F.U.N!although English society isn't as lively as it was before,I'm still going to participate and always ready to help.
before i end my post i would like to say,dont fight over spilt milk.whatever they do or say is what makes people penalised them even more.only god knows what they've done and said and they shall be punished one day.now i've realised that not all people i know worth my respect.i will only help those who needed me,NOT using me and threw me off like a rubbish!being with u all of u losers really is a embarrassment.all the whore shit u guys did are just disgraceful and sinful.
p/s:hang out with sammy,bianca,putri and shu wen ytd.i never knew i was that good in pool.AHAHAHAHA.anyway,ytd was awesome!
well,thats all for today

water rocket is fun!

building water rocket is fun indeed!it's for physic anyway.finally there's something related to my ambition appears.rocket science and nuclear science has always been my passion.the feeling after accomplishing something great is indescribable.especially when it comes to winning those people u hate,the desperation,and thirsty for victorious victory!yea,for those who know me well,u know who i mean.well,i'm gonna be quite bz this week with water rocket and speeches for MPAB.hmm,i'm screwed.for the water rocket,Bianca and i were in the same group.great.i'm very very very very very VERY confident winning this water rocket competition.well,at least i'm smart enough to ask my physic teacher,mr Alfred,of how to build an advance rocket.and with a little intelligence from Bianca and i,i'm sure that building this little thing is not really a big challenge.ghehehe.i just love things involving building and things that involved with both chemistry and physic.rocket science is my 3rd option next time also.ahahahahah!
i collected an extra rm50 for my PMR result.ahahah!just wonderful.but i spent it all for supper in that night alone.well,the food in the buffet sux.i mean,no one on earth would like to have sausages and fish ball for dinner.i was thinking of buying myself starbucks coffee but everyone suggested for supper in other place,so the supper is on me instead.today is also the first day i wrote a calligraphy.i was the only one there without knowing how to write chinese.ahahaha!but my definition is just learning calligraphy for the first time in my entire 15years and 11 months living.my brother carried me just now.turns out i'm not as heavy as i looked like.WAKAKAKKA.
holiday week doesnt looked the same now.tuition classes and marching practice.need to cope everything cause form4 life is no fun.
conclusion is,commitment had doubled up from form3
P/s:i miss wearing prefect uniform.=.=''

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i found out that no matter how i tried to be strong,i can be very sensitive and emotionally upset some times.yeah,i miss my form3 life.no worries and what so ever eventho PMR is just around the corner.spent times with lily pooh and pu3 everyday in class.LILY!how i miss her.obviously for me,i couldnt really stand losing one of my best friends even if they're far far away from where i am.
so today i went to the library for accounts class.i just stare at the place where my debate teammates and i used to sit and practice.i triggered off sooooo many memories there.and whenever i saw the girl who burp in the library i would remember everyone including kanchana's curious face.AHAHAHA.
p/s:dont bother about my blog.i have no clue whats going on with my brain.couldnt stop thinking.ISH!

so long,so fade

i know my blog seems dead for a long time.loads of things are going on in school,home works,tuition,English week coming really soon,and last but not least,DEBATE!currently it's my first experience in debate and people i get to know are all sooo awesome,funny and extremely good in English!i never expect my first debate experience to be this great and people like the debators for our school are fun to be with!winning syahbandar in the first round really boost my interest in debate not only mentally but physically as well.the second round was against KISAS school,the first speaker is terribly good and the third speaker,grrrrr,sets everyone on fire with his hot figure and Arabian look.rasshi,in d other hand couldn't stop fantasising the first speaker @.@.the third round is next week monday,aiks,guess who's our opponent?kota Kemuning.i really hope we win!but eventho we couldnt,i'll still make this experience as a sweet remark for the year!and of cause,not to forget a ex senior of ours,atika,that helped us in our debate(shes awesome)
well,i attent rc meeting yesterday.nothing much to say,but to my suprise i really neglected most of my jobs and things i should handle.i'm getting pretty lazy in rc,in commitment nor works i should complete.all i think of when i'm in meeting,is english week,friends or points for debate.sometimes i dont even want to attend meetings or even go events held by them.hmm,i guess i still cant forget what they said and did.the anger and hatred is will burning within my that nothing they could do to extinguish it.i'm not longer a fool that u guys could find a way to save ur arsses!i had enough with all the things u guys did!give crappy reasons and excuses and denied ur reponsibility,what a big shit ryt?

p/s:dont text me to remove this post,be alert that it's my blog.so F off k?

and yea,this year's a great year when i'm around people like ryanna,sammy,manda,bianca pammy and jo.although lily had transferred to boarding school in Perak,but hey,we're still BFF's as always and forever will be.talking and joking with them makes my day!loveeeeee them all!well,it's getting late and i'm still thinking how the hell do i install chatbox on my blog.ahahaha nitez everyone!

2010

2010 is a very stressful year and not to mention,erratic daily schedule.i just feel so weird these day,days i feel a slight depress is uncountable.i really envy of some other people that could cope in everything they're facing and with their family.but mine was just like a roller-coaster ride.adore me today,the next day i'm ur pain in d ass.i'm sick of these kind of feelings.why everything i have just whizzes away?why do i have to face so many obstacles?why i cant get to go on with my will without someone persuading me to risk my future?!i never been a problem child,nor will i,but please just shut up!just quit it!i know u're just giving me a second opinion,but didnt u realized ur opinion had slowly changing to discouraging?!
may be i'm just throwing tantrums after a whole week of hard struggle.but i wished that someone will be there when i'm in my lowest and congratz me during the high.

i dont believe in some friends,or juniors/seniors anymore.some of them used u and then forget everything u've done.what do they think i am?recycle?bloody FUCKTARDS who do they think they are!?but i'll take these as a blessing,at least i know which of them all are my real friends,and which is hypocrites!and for a person,if u're reading this,please fuck off from my life k?!stop email me in facebook and stop texting me and talk about ur fucking english teacher!seriously,who cares about ur life man!get a life will ya!?just becox u're in d same unit beruniform as i am doesnt mean i treat u as a junior!for me u're invisible!so fuck off idiot!u dont wanna lose a fren,but i dont want a fren like u k?!i'm so sick of u!we r in two different categories ok!even our friends are difff so dont freaking text me or email me.please dont take it a wrong way,dont fucking talk to me!perhaps u get d concept wrong,when i say i'm deleting u in facebook,means i FUCKING DELETED U IN MY LIFE!u and ur hypocrite fren can fuck someone else and i dont give a fucking damn!basterds!for u readerz who is a serious stalker and plan on screwing my ass in meetings or whatsoever!who fucking care?!its my blog and clearly u're having an issue on deciding who u're messing with!if i knw u're messing with me i'm gonna make u a whore shit in skul!